Friday, November 29, 2013

One thing

  Giant pot brownie

Only reason I can guess this came up was we saw a snippet of a movie last night where a couple had small ones they were eating. I don't remember faces and have no idea who was a part of this brownie-fest. Also don't remember a part where we got around to eating it. Just the brownie. Having never had one, was kind of curious how my dream was going to interpret everyone's reaction to it. Oh well...

Thursday, November 28, 2013

Zombies?

  Large house. Bright yellow walls in this one. Two stories. Lots of people sitting around on various types of furniture. A few people are actually engaged in face to face conversation. Everyone else is plugged into cells phones or computers. B tells me that of you go up to the plugged in people and whisper "zombie" to them that they'll transform into zombies. He goes first and sure enough, person drops their phone and starts going all eat your face zombie. Then for some reason I think this is a keen idea and start whispering it to others so we get a good horde going. Unfortunately, we started downstairs. B insisted that we needed to turn folks upstairs too, but I pointed out if we go upstairs we'd be trapped and should make for the nearest exit NOW!

Don't think we made it out. I remember being grabbed my several hands just as I was lunging for the door.

Happy Thanksgiving, Zombies. And you're welcome.

Wednesday, November 27, 2013

Bits

First:
  Walking into the formal dining room in a house unfamiliar to me. The walls were a dark mustard yellow (ew?). A large solid, dark, hardwood table was in the middle of the wpm. A small chandelier above it. No chairs on the room. The from wall faced out the front of the house with windows where you could see trees in the owners yard and the house across the street with trees behind it. Years and trees were very green. East wall also had some windows. South was solid. West took you out of the room back into the hall.
  I remember climbing onto the table and lying down, starting out the front windows into the yard and house and woods beyond. Then awake.

Second:
  Starting at a google maps level of TRF though I wasn't starting at a map, just happened to be looking down on the earth at it from way up high. Zoomed in and find myself driving on a highway 5. I was on the phone with someone trying to get directions to somewhere. Then awake.

Third:
  Just remember a face; Rebecca, a cousin of a guy I went to grade school with. Hope she's ok.

Monday, November 25, 2013

Randomness

Fri Night:
The W*** family apparently had a President at some point in their line and 100 coins were minted with his face and name on them. A very collectible item and worth a lot of money. Once they found out about him they made it a point to try and bring the collection home. ...weird dream.

Sat Night & Sun Night:
Both were clear this morning, but compliments of an incredibly stressful work day, they're long gone. Hoping for some greater memory retention this evening *yawns* Thinking sleep isn't that far off.

Saturday, November 23, 2013

Cuddlefest

Had a dream that a bunch of the druid group members were glomped into kind of a puppy pile curl up nap fest. Twas a warm happy place.

Thursday, November 21, 2013

Another lifetime...

A dream from when I was maybe 18ish years old:

  I was a girl maybe in her late teens or early twenties with a nice naturally tan colored skin (kind of salma hayek-ish looking in Dusk Till Dawn), not much over 5' tall, standing at the top of an Aztek temple. Even had the long, straight black hair. It was sunset and there were people at the bottom of the temple as far as the eye could see.
  I believe I was some kind of high priestess as I was the only one standing up there aside from three other men. Two I think were kind of guardians and sadly the third was a sacrifice. He was quite handsome and built. Some part of me was sad for what I was fixing to do, but I knew it had to happen. This ceremony was representing my becoming the embodiment of one of their gods.
  I beckoned the sacrifice to kneel before me facing everyone. Then one of the guardians came with a bowl that was placed at the base of his neck. I remember the sacrifice showing no fear; like he'd accepted and almost welcomed his fate to help his people and me become whoever/whatever it was I was supposed to become. I stepped forward to him, gently turned his head up where I could look into his eyes as he looked up into mine, then leaned down and in a quick motion pulled the small dagger-like knife I'd started the dream with in my hand across his throat. He didn't flinch, he just kept eye contact as his life spilled out into this bowl. Then when he could support himself no more, I helped lay him to the ground. At this point I stayed where I was, standing behind him, was given the bowl and drank until all was gone. There was an... energy that came with it. Almost a transformation of spirit.. of being. When I lowered the bowl everyone knelt down.  End dream.

Wednesday, November 20, 2013

Renewal

Full intense night of dreams both night before last and last night. Night before last was lost due to shenanigans when bf's first alarm went off. Last night compliments of running late was also lost save one moment where I remember driving and swerving in the road to avoid a huge wolf that had been hit by a car. Middle section was sadly completely crushed so no way it was alive. I remember saying a prayer telling it to rest easy until it was called to join us again.

Monday, November 18, 2013

Ritual

Another night of broken dream pieces:

Tina was standing before the bonfire, dagger raised and chanting. Energy fills everyone. Next we are all gathered inside her house; I recognize only Tina, Chris, Amanda and Jensen. We're sitting around laughing and talking after the ritual. Next I am curled up on a couch in the living room. I'm covered by a blanket. I'm.. naked under that blanket. I can see it, even though the blanket is there. Yay 3rd party observation view! Also asleep. There's a large, warm fire in the fireplace.  Folks are still sitting and standing around talking like it's not a big deal I'm curled up naked on the couch under that wool blanket.

Last thing remembered. Kind of tame in the grand scheme of dreams, but still better than nothing.

Friday, November 15, 2013

Werewolves...yaaaay....

Sadly content of this one could be a lot more interesting, but bf's alarm going off at o-gods-thirty kind of ate it.

  Apparently to become a werewolf, one of the ways now involves your ability to take pictures of the different stages of a live werewolf transforming... and survive the picture taking process. Once you get this collection of pictures on a card-like deck and review them intently, your own transformation begins.

This is what I get for reading Hemlock Grove right before bed and the transformation scene description. Normally what I read/watch before bed doesn't transfer over into dreams, so last night was a neat exception.

Wednesday, November 13, 2013

Dancing and Bruce Willis and ritual, oh my!

Called in dead today. After being sick last week on top of having to work my queue at D by my lonesome, I needed a day off. This meant getting to go back to sleep. Of course this means I have the most incredible headache from not eating since about 9 last night, but I say the dream was worth it.

  A HS friend of mine Ashley and I were at a school that wasn't the one we grew up going to, but in the dream was ours. Apparently our reputations (at least in the dream world) had gotten out about being exceptional dancers. Bruce Willis was in town shooting a musical he was producing and came by the school to see if we would be interested in doing choreography for a few of the numbers. We were more voluntold than asked, but it wasn't like either of us were going to turn him down.
  After some confusion about when and where we were supposed to meet up with him and the dancers, we figure best place is to meet up at the school (us and the hired dancers) and then we'll take chartered buses to the rehearsal location. It was already late afternoon getting into evening, but he wanted to start right away.
  While waiting for everyone to arrive, I remember wandering about the school. It was much nicer than mine back in the woods and had a huge stage for theatre as well as small auditorium-like rooms for classes; the smaller theatre classes actually had little stages in the middle of their mini- auditorium. I settled my way into one of those.
  A group of students were preparing for a play. I went from being observer to actor during some points of it. The details now are a bit fuzzy, but there was a woman who was being what appeared to be a witch for help. Everyone was in fantasy/medieval-ish garb. As the woman was passing to the witch with on top of an old hill with a ragged stone arch atop it, what perhaps were the woman's hand maidens stiid to the side in the dimmed light looking on. On the other side of the hill was a young man on a bench at table drinking from a tankard and for awhile, quietly listening.
  The witch agrees to what the girl is requesting, though what that was had already left me; the dialogue is always hardest for me to remember. The spotlight focuses in on the witch and dims as she begins her work. I remember her pulling some kind of thin, rope-like vine  from the stone arch as part of her spell and smelling cinnamon. Other ingredients she gathered from the top of the hill that were a part of nature, but anything she had brought with her; can't remember other specifics. As the witch was making herself ready to cast her spell upon the thankful girl, the young man from the other side of the hill spoke up in his drunken stupor, chastising the girl for what she was about to do. At this point I found myself sitting on the bench next to him and giving him a very hard glare. The girl up top simply tried to shush him and remind him that this was her choice. After some more grousing, he finally went back to mumbling into his ale.

I didn't get to see how everything ended unfortunately. Woke up just after that and it being 3 in the afternoon, it was about time I got on with my day off. Hope things worked out for the girl, though, whatever she was wishing for.

A couple: bueno and no

  First was... interesting. In this one you could apparently use a third person as a focus for sexual energy. Set up included three people, two physically touching each other in some way, one touching each of the two physically on some way.
  "Some way" it's open to any kind of interpretation that works best for you. The focus poison not only channels their own energy into the other two people, but receives and pushes out the others energy; kind of like a circuit. By adding the third focus person, all senses are heightened making physical touch a nearly constant, instant, intense pleasure that doesn't end until contact is broken.
  I will freely admit I've never been a part of a threesome and honestly I rarely have dreams that involve sexual anything at all. Though saying this as I blush, last night's dream was at least fun in the dream world ;-)

  Second dream... no bueno. Chris and Cat have this huge wooden mansion out in the country; not the first time I've dreamed about them having this place. It's unfortunately completely run down, the wood is brittle and rotting and the whole place is entirely unstable. But they call it home and as friends, we go to visit.
  I only remember a small portion, but I believe we were there for some kind of party and we're also going to help fix up the place a bit. The party was happening on the roof of the house which was also connected for some odd reason to a massive barn.  The patio area was small and if you wanted more space, you were out waking on the house roof or barn roof.
  At some point Cat goes out onto the barn roof to get around beneath the patio and the whole barn structure begins to shift. She's not the only one out there. We're able to bring a few people in to the patio, but Cat and another lady (don't remember her face) fall. Then the barn collapses on top of them.
  Cat is JUST outside of the edge of the barn wall when it falls, narrowly missing her. Those of us on the house roof/patio actually caught one wall side and see holding it up trying to keep it from continuing to fall. Cause... apparently we can do that. The other lady unfortunately isn't as lucky. The end away from the house came down on her head so all you get is a scene of head under barn wall with read of body sticking out. My guess is she didn't survive as there was a lot of blood, but unfortunately alarm went off and ended it.

Sunday, November 10, 2013

What dreams may come...

Fri 11/8 night:
In garb. Lying on the edge of a constantly rotating massive stadium, just letting its turn carry my along. At some point I hop down walking down a set of stairs to an arena where friends are waiting; can't remember faces. I'm needing to put on some boots, but apparently there's some specific order that has to be: hose, ankle brace, hose, boots. And I keep messing it up and having to take it all off and start over. Over and over again. Everyone gets really impatient and put out. I get super frustrated and angry because it's a simple thing that should be easy to do right the first time. Dream ends, still didn't get it right.

Sat 11/9 night:
Many dreams, only remember a couple now. One is of being in HS with fools I went to school with, but also with some co-workers from my current job and the managers and upper management. We're in a class room where I'm proposing that we need everyone to take short quizzes to see where they currently fail in skill level for grammar and spelling. After doing audits on case logging and emails to customers, some were terrible. Management agrees this would be good so I start writing examples on the board of what I've seen, then music starts playing out of nowhere. I first thought it was the projector, but it turned out to not be on. Music finally stops and I go back to slashing, then bell rings for class to let out. As I'm gathering up my things, a rose whose petals have madly been pulled off is on my desk with my stuff. I gather it and the fallen petals up and throw them in a trash. On her way out, my old co-worker Angela hands me a dying red rose and walks out. End dream.

Next I'm a part of a dance troupe. The dream starts with a tap dance number. Everyone is probably mid-grade school age. I'm looking late middle school. The number ends and we change shoes into ballet slippers; mine are non-point shoes. We do the number, the crowd applauds and starts to disperse. Our dear and shoes are strewn about everywhere after the performance. I find my grade, but can't seem to locate my slippers. I start going around trying on pairs that I see lying around trying to find mine, thinking someone may have grabbed them on accident. Most don't fit or are point shoes I can't wear. I finally come across a purple pair that are like those old gel shoes material from when I was in elementary school. I raised up on my tip toes on them an was able to stand point with no pain. My instructor saw me and came over and said congrats, that I could now move up to point shoes. Dream ends.

When I was a young girl in dance, I had taken every flavor they offered back home. I was good enough to even me in the 13+ age group when I was 11; talk about shortest kid in the class. But when the day came for us to all sit on the floor in ballet and have the instructors tell us if we could move on to point, I was told my feet were not shaped correctly and they wouldn't even let me try. I remember offering to break my feet into whatever shape they needed. They laughed it off, but I was serious. I had really wanted to be in The Nutcracker some day. I was devastated. I never went back. My spirit was broken at the news and I never danced again. Stupid and childish at the time, but mom said it was my choice. Now? I wish I hadn't stopped. It was one of the few things in life I was truly good at. The owner and primary instructor had told me some day I was going to be an amazing choreographer. At 11 I had helped choreographer a lot of the routines we (my class) performed at our yearly "to do" in from of about 2000 people. Felt amazing.

Alas...

Friday, November 8, 2013

Battles long before

Viking warriors and shield maidens line the field, shields and weapons at the ready. Fierce looks don their faces as a surge of energy moves through the horde with the rise of their battle cries. They know that death is always a possibility, but do not fear it as they will then join their Brothers and Sisters is Valhalla and feast with the gods. The battle is coming...

Thursday, November 7, 2013

Viking dreams

As always, there's more, but just out of memories reach. What I do recall is a huge pallet made of layer upon layer of furs and sheep skins; enough to keep even the coldest Viking Warrior or Valkyrie warm. Wasn't much in the way of clothes and the furs felt good against my bare skin. I felt at home.

Wednesday, November 6, 2013

Nothing exciting this way comes

Lots of dreams. Do I remember them? Of course not. Was seduced by the warm blankets and snuggling kitties telling me it was too cold outside their shelter to reach for my phone and update. About all that's left is a flyer that was for a Halloween party in a house I've never seen before where the pictures and puerile on the flyer moved like you could see them doing their thing at the party. Kind of neat. Jessica was there. Sadly nothing else to report.

Tuesday, November 5, 2013

Ancient past (dreams over the nights of Oct 28-30 of 2012)

From an email about them I sent to my brother this past Jan:

  Believe these happened over the nights of Oct 28, 29th and 30th last year; the 29th being the full moon that month. The details aren't nearly as clear as they were after, but I’ll try to tell you as much as I remember.

  28th: I find myself sitting before 5 men looking to be of African descent. It’s a cool night, well into the evening, and I’m sitting on the ground crossed legged before them, directly in the center so I’m facing one man head on, and before me is a wooden bowl with a dark, thick liquid. I look like me but wearing light cloth, off white by dust, in kind of a capri pants and tunic type shirt. These men are wearing what I would describe as ornate tribal trappings of ritual and/or celebration. They look at me, I look directly back. No smile, no movement, just.. existing in the same space. Behind me is a huge bonfire with many dancing around it in not much and what there is looks festive, singing or chanting in a language I do not understand. In the darkness, though, I feel like there are hundreds just on the edge of the fire light watching.. waiting. After some time has passed. Everything comes to an abrupt halt and the sudden silence is almost sharp; there is no sound at all nor smell, not even of the fire. I stare into the eyes of what appears to be the leader of this tribe and he stares back for what feels like forever. Then he inclines his head to me, never breaking eye contact. I return the gesture and pick up the bowl and drink from it until it’s empty. The taste is familiar; blood, and still warm. Putting down the bowl, the world starts back into motion full of sounds and celebration and screams of joy and I have this feeling of being accepted. Of being home. End dream.

  29th: The setting is a long, one piece low to the ground dinner table. At the table are perhaps 10-15 people. Yet again I have the feeling of more I can not see. We’re in a kind of feast hall type setting, though it’s small. There is a stone wall behind what appears to be the people in charge. Everyone is dressed in credible colors and designed of clothes that appear to be of India flavor. The people certainly have look of ones that could come from India. I’m in the middle again, facing those with their backs to the wall and people sitting close on either side of me as everyone that could needed to fit. We’re sitting on pillows on the floor and there are beautiful rugs underneath them. As soon as the dream starts, I’m yet again locking eyes with the man in the middle; the person in charge. As before, there’s no feeling of pressure of wills or being drawn in, just looking into the eyes almost searching. Here again there is celebration around us, though none of the food or drink have been touched on the table, just lots of folks laughing and talking and seeming to catch up with one another and enjoy the company. Then as before, sudden stop and silence. Everyone looks directly at me (a feeling like I had in the first dream), waiting. There’s that feeling again of an infinite amount of time passing, then the leader inclines his head to me, I do the same, and looking down I take up the wooden bowl placed before me (a bit more refined and smooth than the first), and drink; contents of bowl being the same as the first dream. Once done, I place the bowl down on the table and then the universe starts up again. Cheers ring out and singing begins as well as feasting. Never any facial expression from the person across from me, but I get that feeling again of having done well or passing some test and that I've been accepted. That I’m home.  End dream.

  30th: This is the fuzziest one. I know if fell in what looked to be ancient Asia; not sure what flavor the people were but there were incredibly ornate clothes and designs, lots of red and gold unlike the many colors in the second dreams and only the night and the dark skins and few matte earthy colors I could make out from the first. In this ceremony I am on my knees and before me stand 7 or so people with a huge number of people I can see around us in what could be a throne room of sorts and there’s still that feeling of many more watching. The same eye contact process happens, then the head incline as if to proceed, I return the gesture, then the drinking. I can’t remember the exact make of this bowl. I remember it being light, but I don’t think the outside was wood. It’s possible it was plated with something else. Contents same as before. I drink until gone. There was total silence in this one from when I arrived in the dream to when it stopped; stupid alarm clock. But once my part was complete, that sense of belonging and of being home filled me again.

  The whole drinking blood thing oddly didn't squig me out at all. It felt natural and that it was the right thing to do and what was expected of me to become one with these people and gain their acceptance.  Odd how it still doesn't seem weird or unnatural.

Empty night

Well, not entirely. But every time I would wake up to shift positions I kept having a feeling something was wrong with my fiend Liz and that would immediately erase any dreamage. Thankfully, she appears to be ok. Lamesauce on the not remembering jack, though. Shooting for better luck tonight.

Monday, November 4, 2013

Bits and pieces

First the possibility of learning to dance again, next... don't remember now. Third a gathering where you're asked what scares you most then taken through a property with a huge house and outdoor setup where they hire actors to actually play out your worst fears for you.

Because there's much worse fears, I told them one that is indeed a fear, but not my worst; letting down friends and not being there when they need me most. So as we're lead through this house, we see many fears played out and watching to see who reacts most to them finding out who they belong to. It was a huge house I'd never been in before; pastel yellow paint with white trim... before the lights went out. After we were done with the house horrors, we were leaf out to a massive wooden deck structure where they continued. We finally got to mine where I had to watch actors resembling a few friends be killed by attackers and I was restrained and powerless to stop them. It hoovered, as I knew it would. Then we continued on.

Alarm time.

Notta then short oddness

Last night compliments of severe head cold and angry sore throat, didn't stay asleep long enough to dream and if I did, it was lost in a nyquil haze.
The 7 hours of fever and chills today that I tried to sleep off, however, produced one very short one.
There was an Asian girl I didn't know and her translator. Both late teens. Think I was that age too in it. She'd come to visit our country and for some reason was staying with me. We were at my grandparents house. For some stupid reason my bf (no one I recognize from rl) recommended watching a tv show to try and entertain her. After a half hour or so and her looking bored to tears from not understanding it thanks to language barrier, I shut it off and insisted we go out and show her around as I was sure she didn't fly all this way to watch tv.
I know there was more dialogue and details, but that's about when I woke up and it's been fading over the evening. As always, randomness abounds.

Saturday, November 2, 2013

Hidey holes

My friend Jeff and his family were moving. They were living in a house I always identify in my dream as my cousin's old house, though it's not. Other friends I've dreamed have lived in this house before. It's full of secret nooks to stash things and passageways. Jeff already has tons of stuff. Glad he doesn't live in a real place like this or we'd never find it all to move. Was fun trying to remember all the different hiding spaces that people/stuff could fit into, though! Haven't seen this dream house in years. Good stuff.

Friday, November 1, 2013

Vampires and fangs and blood, oh my!

**Not as detailed as the morning after, but here's the bits I remember. Two people I know (Logan and Brandon) were there as Logan's s.o. Daley who I have never met**

Night of 10/23:

  The dream started off it what to be an abandoned city. It had kind of that green haze to the sky; very post-apocalyptic look. It would have been a downtown type area; lots of skyscrapers. Or what was left of them at least. Place was silent. I felt drawn to a certain building, though, and went inside. It looked to have previously been for loft apartments, but everything was ruined and falling apart. I remember walking up the stairs, careful when I stepped as they were not entirely stable. Still no sounds aside from the ones I made on each step. I felt like I walked quite some time; not sure how many stories I made it up to. I came to a door; same as the other floors. Green peeling paint, rotting wood. Mold on the walls. Nothing to set it apart from any floor. But I knew this is where I was supposed to be.

  I took a step forward intending to knock, but the door opened on its own. I walked in and seeing no one, closed the door behind me. The loft was filled with all manners of furniture; sadly in various states of ruin. Cobwebs and mold were eating up the place. I went room to room until I found the bedroom where two people were standing. Daley gave me a small smile and Logan came forward, giving me a long hug. He said nothing. After awhile he pulled back and looked into my eyes and smiled, his fangs showing. Taking me by the hand, he lead me out of the room into what once was a living area.

  He let go my hand when we were about 10 steps from an old rotting couch; Brandon were standing in a corner of the room just... watching. Going through a door next to it, Logan returned with what almost looked like a scepter. A very macabre scepter. The base was gold. Shiny, though a few places were marred with black where the gold over time appeared to have rubbed or peeled off. At the top of the scepter, though, was a skull. It had grey leathery skin, features that were sharp due to its age without life. He handed me the scepter and gestured for me to sit on the couch. Smiling, he turned and left me there.

  I looked down at this scepter, feeling its weight and looked at its detail; there were even a few pretty jewels left and engravings of marks I did not recognize. What got my attention was when the skulls eyes opened and looked at me. To my credit, I didn't drop the thing. I was more fascinated than afraid. I didn't feel any evil from the object, though it definitely had a "Tales from the Crypt" look to it. Green eyes. It smiled and then began to speak to me. I'm afraid a lot of the details of what it said are lost when I remembered them perfectly before. I know it greeted me by name. Asked if I knew why I was there. I remember telling it "not exactly, but I know this is where I belong." Its smile broadened, showing more than a few fangs. It then told me to come to it. Ever closer. Then it started speaking in a language I did not recognize. I remember feeling... drawn to it. Compelled almost. And oddly completely not disgusted when I closed my eyes and kissed the thing.

  I remember blood from it pouring into my mouth and I drank and kissed, then feeling it bite into my lip and tongue as this continued for... I can' say how long. In that instant I could feel my world had changed. When I finally pulled back, my heart was racing, my skin was burning, and I felt more... alive than I ever had before. I sat the scepter down on the couch and licking my lips, I could tell from them down I was covered in immense amounts of blood. I stood up and turned towards the room. Brandon, Logan and Daley had come in at some point while I was.. preoccupied and I guess were watching. They all smiled at me. I could see their fangs and smiling back, I could feel my new ones as well. For the first time Logan spoke and said "Welcome home" and reached out for me.

  That's when I woke up.

Introduction of a kind...

I've never had a dream journal before. For years I have been told it would be a good idea considering how detailed my dreams are, but the crunch from alarm clock to out the door to work in the morning just hasn't ever allowed for it; that or I continue to make excuses to put it off as some of my dreams can be... disturbing. Having added the blogger app to my phone, I'm hoping that might make it easier to add things when I wake. If not, knowing this is here at all should motivate me to share what I have when I get to a computer in the morning.

I'm not only doing this to chronicle my dreams, but making this a daily exercise, I hope that it will help me start getting in the habit of writing every day in another blog for story ideas.

Points for effort.

*smiles*

--The White Rose